You're 7 months old already. How did we cross over the halfway hump on our way through the first year?! It makes my heart ache how fast time is going this year with you. You're an absolute joy. You smile at everyone. You just want to make friends everywhere you go, my little Aquarius. You really love to watch people, so much so, that it makes it nearly impossible to nurse you. You'd much rather have a bottle so you can keep an eye on everything going on around you. You have been a great sleeper since birth, with only the normal disruptions during teething and growth spurts. Which by the way, you got your first tooth on August 25th! We saw signs of it coming right around the 1st. But it popped through on the 25th.
You poor girl, not only did your cut tooth that week, but Monday, August 24th through Sunday, the 30th you were sick from Roseola. Your fever got to 104.5 for the first 3 days. We were really scared to see you fighting so hard through that fever. Your breathing was labored and you were out of it. You're such a trooper and pulled through though. We didn't get much sleep all that week.
Also during that week, I was spending time on and off at the Capitol in Boise for the extraordinary legislative session. I made my first two testimonies that week. One to the House of Reps in a committee hearing on Monday the 24th, and another on Wednesday to the Senate in a committee hearing. I'm working really hard to do my best protect our state and future. I love you and your siblings so much, and I'm really concerned about how things are going in our state and country.
You started sitting up on August 19th, and got really good at it within a week. You started your first semester at the Little Gym. It's really fun to work with you in your class, and your teacher, Miss Cat, has been your big sister's teacher since she was 9 or 10 months old. Unfortunately, when we go everyone wears masks, but I don't, so none of the other moms want to be around us or bring their baby near us. I'm really sorry about that. It's a crazy world you have been born into, during a really strange and outrageous year specifically. People are scared. It still makes me sad that this happens at your infant class though. But I promise you, you and I have fun nonetheless, and your teacher is wonderful and is super sweet. She always talks with mom, and comes up to chat with you, and even pops her mask down for a second to peep a smile at you. That makes you light up, because you love seeing other people smile.
You've started eating new foods. Avocado was your first food on Aug 16th and then you had peas on the 29th, and sweet potatoes on Sept. 7th. You really like sweet potatoes. You make some funny faces eating avocado and peas. You love eating though. You sit in your high chair at the table with the family, and you're so happy being able to do this now. You're constantly grabbing at everyone's food and drinks, especially Clara's. You want everything she has. She's eager to share with you, so we have to watch that she doesn't give you anything you aren't ready for yet. You're very motivated to eat and try foods, so we're having fun trying more foods out.
Well, that's your update for now. You're so dearly loved, sweet girl.
*photos taken 9-13-20, turned 7 mos on 9-12
How empowered do you feel when it comes to dealing with political issues? How confident do you feel about understanding government and your rights? Do you fear the government?
If you feel like you aren’t sure how to deal with political topics, or don’t understand quite how government works, and aren’t sure you really know your rights, well guess what? You aren’t alone. And it’s pretty much by design.
How easy it to gain control over others? It doesn’t happen overnight. This is like the year that a giant red launch button was pushed. Plans were in place. Hell, even the planets are aligned for all this upheaval, pandemic, and chaos going on. So my question, how easy is it to gain control over others and have them fall right in line?
The list goes on a mile long, but you get the gist. But that wouldn’t happen in your state, in your country, in America, the land of the free… right?
How much do you remember from civics class? Did you take a civics class in school? If you did, was anything you ever learned put into practice? Probably not.
Here’s the short of what I’m getting at:
The government’s job is to protect our rights. To create equal laws. Its purpose is to serve the people and uphold the constitution. Do you feel like that’s happening right now? I don’t. I can’t even recall a time when I felt like my voice was heard or that government was looking out for the people. But it’s truly out of control this year. Everywhere in this country.
The government isn’t responsible for us, and it’s certainly not meant to reign over us.
If you’re living in fear of the government, that’s tyranny. If you’re being told how to live your life by the government, that’s tyranny, that’s dictatorship, and you certainly wouldn’t see that in America…..right?
Yesterday evening I attended an event put on by Rep. Heather Scott and Health Freedom Idaho at Julia Davis Park. I saw her speak at the Capitol in Boise on Tuesday (read about the rally here). She was amazing, as many of the 15 that showed up for that special session were. I was inspired, and felt some hope, and unity, and like my voice, and the voice of the people around me in the gallery were being heard. Sure we didn’t get a resolution we had hoped for, but for the first time ever in my life, I felt like there’s actually people, legislators that care and really do want to do their job. They want to be a voice for the people and uphold their oath and the Constitution.
My initial impression of Heather is that she’s down to earth, approachable, passionate, and empowering. She wants to keep America a Republic and she wants people to understand their rights.
Really quickly, I’m going to do my best to sum up the topics she discussed, what I got from her presentation "Plannedemic":
Okay, awesome presentation, Heather. Seriously, she was hitting the nail on the head with all of her points she wanted to make. And she didn’t leave us hanging. She did give some pointers. In case you didn’t know, a representative’s job is to uphold the constitution and make laws. If you want the government to hold your hand then you don’t want to live in a free nation. As Benjamin Franklin said, “Any society that will give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both.”
Folks, that’s where we are. Right now. What are you willing to give up? What are you willing to lose?
So here’s some pointers by Rep. Heather Scott:
That’s it in a nutshell. Everything I can remember from her talking points.
After her presentation, I had an opportunity to talk with her. She’s totally approachable. I loved that about her. She listens. She really wants to listen to you, so speak up. She wants to answer your questions and if she can’t she’s going to find how she can get you an answer. She wants people to be empowered. Personally, I’ve never felt so inspired by a politician. I’ve pretty much had a cynical outlook on politics and believing that I’d never be heard out or find a politician that truly wants to be a voice for the people and keep freedoms intact. I also have never felt truly confident and empowered in politics or exercising my rights.
I absolutely plan to take this more seriously. Back when William was young I took time to sit with him, to educate him, and discuss the Constitution, branches of government, and this country’s history. It’s still one of the most memorable and still ongoing topics I share with my son. I recognize this year though just how much I have to learn and get active in practicing and following through with.
I am going to be following through with some of Rep. Heather Scott’s suggestions. I definitely plan to take a more active role in my life by really, truly getting a solid understanding of my rights and how to use them. I sincerely hope this isn’t the last time I get to chat with her.
Now to get really personal, because that’s what I do, it’s my blog, my story, my experience. I’m not here to just lay out what was said.
This week has been a whirlwind for me. Since this is my family blog and I only share it with my family and friends 99% of the time, you know my story. This year has been truly tough for me with my health challenges and having another baby. I’ve been pretty isolated for the last year, with most of my contact being mainly doctors and home health care nurses. I’m dealing with that aftermath, but I’m finally starting to get a glimpse of my old drive, my passion, my fire. I want to get back to life, back to feeling like I’m actually living. I’m going to cling to that, because life is meant to be lived. Lived not in isolation but lived out with others. Not suffering. Not in pain. Not in silence. Not in stigma.
I’m an introvert. Getting out as much as I have, every day this week, meeting new people, getting involved, and learning, has been a bit overwhelming. But in a good way. I feel like I’ve met some strong, vocal, badass women. I’ve met other moms. I’ve met like-minded people. I’ve attended a session at the Capitol and listened to reps discuss a proclamation, and actually had the opportunity to meet and chat with a representative. The last couple of weeks I was emailing reps and senators and went out to sign the petition to recall the governor.
A leaf is turning. We must persevere if we want to keep this country a free nation. We all have to step up and do better. We have to do better for our children, for each other, and for ourselves. Don’t lose yourself to the propaganda and fear. Remember who you are. Get in touch with that light and love inside. Get right with yourself. Get right with God. Go do some good in the world. Fight for what’s right. Exercise your rights. Learn how to connect with people again. And I don’t just mean because of all the isolation this year. We’ve all been far too removed from one another for far too long. I’m always learning. I’m pushing myself out of my comfort zones. We can all do this.
Now, this introverted, tired momma is going to go hang out in the sunshine with my babies, lie out on the grass and ground myself a bit, then go for a walk. This the weekend is busy, too, with a birthday party for my sweet little niece and a photoshoot for my dear friend that just had a baby. I will be living my life and being with people I care about, and getting out. I will be working on growing that light inside of me that’s been darkened so badly in the last year and more so since this crisis happened in the world and our country. I’m taking a stand for my life and I’m going to live it. I urge you to do the same.
Read The People's Rally
Today was a historic day for Idaho, and I’m proud to say I was witness to it. I exercised my Constitutional rights by attending the people’s rally at the Capitol and to support legislators meeting and speaking up about their thoughts on what’s happening in Idaho. In short, the big goal is to end the state of emergency that Gov. Little has placed on Idaho. What we got from today was 15 of 105 reps sharing a proclamation.
Firstly, the mainstream media (MSM) wants to portray today’s event at the Capitol as a bunch of whining, radical right wing extremists. I’ll tell you, I was there firsthand and that wasn’t my impression at all. What I saw were people that want to stand up for and protect their rights and freedoms as Idahoans and Americans. They want to protect their families and they want a secure future, which as all of us in America can agree on, is that the future feels very unclear right now.
I heard people talking about losing their jobs, homes, people that couldn’t get medical treatment because of shutdowns, rates of mental illness on the rise. I heard talk about how they fear their children and grandchildren’s future will be spent paying the price for the shutdowns and money being handed out by the government. I heard people talking mostly about the loss of freedoms and their desire to protect America’s Constitution and the Constitution of Idaho. I heard from a woman from Romania that experienced tyranny firsthand and recognizes what’s happening in America now.
These weren’t radical people wanting to overthrow government. They’re patriots. They’re constitutionalists. They’re parents. They’re business owners. They’re homeowners. They gathered peacefully. They want to be heard. And with that said, I’m part of this they I refer to as well.
I’m a mom. I want my parental rights secured and medical freedom. I want the Constitution to be upheld. I want a safe, free state and country to raise my children in. I want to know that the checks and balances that should be taking place in our government are working. And when things are going wrong I want to be heard. I want to have these genuine conversations and I want solutions to the problems we’re facing.
I’ll be really honest here; I’m not one to easily make choices to get involved with much of anything. I’m very reserved for the most part, shy, introverted, and cautious. Now people that know me well, sure no problem being open with them, but that’s few. I don’t like rush hour traffic; crowds, public speaking, grocery shopping when the store is busy, and I tend to just be a homebody. It took a lot for me to walk up to a crowd of people where I didn’t know anyone, during a rally, in a time like this that our country is facing. I was nervous.
I just know that I can’t sit here any longer watching the country fall apart, and turn out to either be only a thumb twiddling keyboard warrior, or disassociate by putting my head in the sand and hoping everything just gets better. I have my own beliefs and opinions, and they aren’t typically on the popular side, they aren’t typically mainstream, but unless you know me well, you just won’t know what I think about certain things, because I stopped opening up and sharing my thoughts a long time ago about issues that are triggering and divisive for so many.
Although today may not have ended with a clear path towards ending the state of emergency Idaho has been placed under, it was a positive experience. I’m so happy I went to the Capitol today to witness and be a part of this rally.
During this “special” session as it’s being referred to I was inspired, moved, and motivated by not only the people that were there, united and peaceful, but very much by the brave representatives that attended. Why are they brave?
Because they are speaking up. Because they are upholding their oath in a time when they will take so much heat for what they spoke today. Because they’re facing threats and pressure from the top down.
They came and they heard the people, they are being a voice for the people, they’re doing what they swore an oath to do.
First off, when they entered the House they didn’t just sit at their marked seats. They pulled their chairs around in a circle and gathered with us, with each other. Right then I was impressed by the action to show that this is a conversation, this is not divisive, or an us vs. them, they were there to be a voice for us and to work together.
The session was opened with prayer, so the Spirit of God was called on, and I believe that’s important. The Pledge of Allegiance was recited, we took a seat and the reps began with the reading of a proclamation stating their concerns for the state of Idaho and the country, and things that are happening that are unconstitutional. There were definitely concerns that our country is under attack. There were concerns about how our Governor has been handling things this year and his overreach of power.
The proclamation lets other legislators know and the Governor know where they stand. We didn’t get a resolution, which means there’s still a lot more effort that needs to be made in order to get our freedom, government, and rights back in Idaho. The mainstream media (MSM) is going to eat these reps alive and the people that attended. Patriots have got to unite and stand together as we move forward to keep fighting for our rights in Idaho.
All of Idaho’s representatives should’ve been in attendance. Some were opposed. Some were under the belief that is was actually unconstitutional to be there. Some were there, but were hanging back in the hallway, not being a part of the session. Some may’ve wanted to see support from the people, because they’ve been threatened or simply know that MSM will come for them. Whatever the reasons are for the reps not in attendance, honestly, in my opinion, doesn’t trump the fact that they took an oath to be a voice for the people and to uphold the Constitution. Every single one of them should’ve been there to deliberate. It’s a violation to their oath of office they were elected into.
Idaho needs its reps and senators to read and sign the proclamation.
Our Governor has suspended rights in Idaho. He has suspended parental rights, instilling contact tracers, he has suspended 200 statutes. He has taken 1.25 billion dollars from the federal government. Gov. Little is drafting, amending, and suspending statutes without legislature. He’s violating separation of powers. He’s violating the checks and balances that are supposed to be in place. Last I checked this is the United States of America, a republic, and he seems to have forgotten that he can’t reign as a tyrannical king over Idaho.
Here’s the thing, our legislators should be meeting, and they should be reconvening on the 90th day after a state of emergency has been declared. We need to terminate the state of emergency. We need our rights back. We need to be able to parent without fear, run our businesses, go to work, attend churches, attend gatherings, have medical freedom, and quit living in fear. We need our reps to be our voice, but they’ve been deemed non-essential like the rest of us. Meanwhile our Governor has formed his own advisory board.
This isn’t about overthrowing the government. It’s about being intelligent, respectful, having heart, and ensuring we can protect our freedoms and Constitution. We have to get the legislature to meet for an emergency session. We, as the people need to support our legislators to be able to do their job.
I heard 15 reps speak today. They had backbones, heart, passion, and came across absolutely genuine. They care deeply about their job, their state and country, the people, their own family, and freedoms. Some of us sitting in the gallery were moved to tears. At times, it was challenging to not want to stand up and applaud them for sharing their thoughts, fears, hopes, and wisdom. It gave me hope to listen to them today. I was moved. And just as so many of us sitting there listening were proud of them, they were in turn proud of us for being there, too. Because it’s we the people that must take action, stay informed, and realize that what we put in is what we get back, or at least ought to be, right?
These are disheartening and frightening times. Everyone has something to be pissed off about, scared of, but what can we do about it? What can you do? Can you take the time to attend these events? Can you take the time to meet new people? Can you take the time to write or call your local reps, senators, and sheriffs? Can you take the time to educate legislators what you support and don’t support? Can you build relationships with people? Can you have conversations that are productive?
The biggest hindrance to today’s session is the fact that only 15 of 105 reps attended. The people that weren’t there that needed to be there. There’s divisiveness every direction we look and there’s fear. Tyranny is taking place. People are confused. When people are scared and confused they don’t act or they bicker or as we’re seeing all over the place they get violent. I don’t know about you, but that’s not how I want to live and it’s absolutely not how I want my children to grow up. Maybe like I did, I had to gut check myself, I had to put my fears aside, I had to put my cynicism aside and I had to be present, listen, and be a part of taking action. It felt good. And I thank God it was a peaceful assembly, which is a great example of coming together during this time in our country.
I have found myself feeling overwhelmed by so many things this year. But I can tell you it felt great to go attend this event today, to be a part of history in the making, to be a part of the people, to care deeply and want to get involved, in person, to learn, to have a firsthand experience and not just what MSM feeds a steady diet of. I’m ready for more of this. Ready for more action to support, to not be a victim to the injustice that’s happening all over, and to take a role in my life and for the lives of my children, and probably grandchildren that will be affected by what’s happening this year.
I’d like to end this on a note of deep gratitude for the 15 brave reps that spoke up today. On a note of honesty, I don’t claim to know all of your track records or everything you’ve voted for or against, either. I just know that after listening to each of you speak today, which each of you seemed to speak from your heart, with passion, off the cuff, and I was moved by it. You have my love and support to get back to your job, which is essential, which is needed and to do what’s best for Idahoans and to end this state of emergency and get our rights back.
Government cannot grant to us, nor revoke from us; our unalienable Rights bestowed upon us by our Creator- those being Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness.
That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness.
These statements above are straight from the Declaration of Independence.
Today I took a small stand and signed my name to vote out Governor Brad Little. I cannot sit idly by and wring my hands over the loss of rights that has occurred since this pandemic started. Gov. Little has stripped away rights of Idahoans. He has stripped away parental rights, he stands to take away medical freedom, he has shut down businesses, and he’s shown himself to be incapable of handling the power that comes with his leadership position as governor of Idaho.
Our unalienable Rights have been deemed insignificant and have been treaded on in the name of public safety. Idahoans need a leader that stands up for and protects the Constitution.
He has suspended parental rights. For me, personally this is a HUGE red flag. He has proposed there won’t be any back to “normal” without forced vaccinations. Again, another red flag, as I stand for people being able to choose their medical care. He has deemed what businesses are essential and which ones aren’t, therefore denying people the right to work. He has closed down churches and the polls. Small businesses are being destroyed in this SCAMDEMIC. Rates of depression, anxiety, and suicides have risen as people are being forced to isolate and lose their livelihoods. He is enforcing and hiring contact tracers. He is demanding compliance to irrational guidelines, guidelines which aren’t laws.
These are only some of the issues that compel me to take a stand and sign my name to recall him.
It takes 20% of registered voters to recall a governor in Idaho. Time will tell. Regardless of what happens, I won’t sit by, being a keyboard warrior or wringing my hands over the loss of rights this country is facing without doing the least I can by signing my name with the hopes for something better for Idaho.
Milestone photos of Stella 1 week to 3 months old.
One Week Old
February 18, 2020 ( photos taken at 9 days old 2-20)
;weet girl, you're here! You eat all the time and just want to be close to mommy. You're first day home was February 15th. It was overcast and sprinkling outside. In the first 9 days we had some concerns with jaundice. We were worried as we went through a lot with your big sister, Clara, when she had jaundice. However, we were able to get your bili levels down to an acceptable range by the time you were 5 days old.
I had milk coming in quite a bit when we were at the hospital, but it quickly dwindled, so since this wasn't my first rodeo with nursing and expected I'd have trouble with low supply issues, I had set up an appointment with our lactation consultant, Lynelle, but she was busy so her assistant came over. Sharina and I have had some previous interactions which we both got a kick out of. When I was pregnant with Clara, Sharina was introduced to me through my friend and doula, Chelsea, she was learning to become a doula. So she came over to the house with Chelsea one time when we had an appointment.
Then, a little while later, Clara was getting speech therapy sessions at home for a year, and Sharina was her case worker for her sessions.
So when Lynelle told me her trainee would be coming over for our appointment and told me her name, I knew it had to be the Sharina I know. Sure enough it was her. We had two visits day five and day nine. You weighed 7 lbs 5.5 oz. We still needed to get your weight up 9.5 ounces to get you to your birth weight, so we increased your formula to supplement for what I wasn't producing in breast milk for you.
At nine days old we had a relaxed photo session at home with my friend, Edith.
I love watching your sleep and cooing over your expressions.
One Month Old
March 12, 2020 (photos taken 3-14)
Through your first month
Day 5, Feb. 17: Your first pediatrician appointment and we had to go straight to the hospital to get your bilirubin levels checked after seeing your doctor. I was very worried about taking you out with Covid going around. I also didn’t feel well, as I had pneumonia, lots of swelling from surgery, and no sleep.
Your umbilical cord fell off at 7:30pm on Feb. 24, 12 days old
Day 15, Feb. 27: Had your ECG, echocardiogram, to check for heart problems. You were so upset the entire time, but your big sister really tried to comfort you. Mom got XRAYS today too to check on my status from pneumonia. Everything looked okay on your ECG. You have a heart murmur, and we will check it again when you’re four months old.
Day 16, Feb 28: Sharina comes to visit for a weight check and you are up to 7lbs 10.5 oz
Day 19, March 2: We saw you pediatrician again for a weight check and you were up to 7lbs 14.4 oz. we did it, just about at your birth weight. We found the sweet spot for your supplement needs with formula in between breastfeeding.
Day 27, March 10: Weight check at Lynelle’s office and you’re up to 8.7lbs.
I'm still only getting about 2 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period. Baby girl, let's get some sleep soon.
The world is turning upside down from the Covid pandemic.
Some developmental milestones:
I'm struggling with PPD/PPA and PTSD.
Two Months Old
April 12, 2020 ( pics taken 4-11)
By week 5, March 17 you are definitely smiling. You're getting more of a voice, too
March 24, 41 days: We had a teleconference video chat with your doctor to check on your skin problems. You are covered head to toe in seborrheic dermatitis. We had to start changing your formula to see if it helps.
March 25, 42 days: You're up to 9lbs 3.5 oz at your weight check with Lynelle. I had to see a GI dr for pain and ongoing nausea and vomiting. HG did a number on me. Idaho also declares lockdown today because of Covid19. The world is going crazy, baby. It's been so overwhelming to bring you into this world at a time of crisis. You're a brave soul to choose to come now. I love you so much. Thank you for being such a blessing to our family. It's dark times out in the world, but you, my precious baby, are a joy and light in our home.
March 30, 46 days old: I needed an ultrasound on my gallbladder. I was in so much pain and so so sick.
March 31, 47 days: Emergency appointment with dentist, my teeth are in bad shape from HG and I need to have dental surgery very soon.
April 2, 49 days: I ended up in the ER at 1 am. I was in tears and passing out. I was throwing up a lot and had horrendous pain. I had to go alone, because of the pandemic and new hospital policies. I had emergency surgery today to remove my swollen, infected gallbladder.
April 6, 53 days: Started a rx wash to help your seborrheic dermatitis. You had an in person appointment with your pediatrician for your 2 months well baby check. You are up to 9.11 lbs and are 55cm/ 21.6" long
April 8, 55 days: I have root canal surgery on a tooth that's badly affected from pregnancy. I am only 5 days post op from gallbladder surgery and really not feeling well.
April 10, 57 days: William moves in with his dad.
I'm struggling a lot still with PPD/PPA and PTSD from HG. I;m doing the best I can, but I'm exhausted. I love you immensely. Your big sister is over the moon, head over heels in love with you, and you watch her. You light up seeing her.
Three Months Old
May 12, 2020 (photos taken 5-9)
April 19, 2 mos and 1 week old. You meet your great grandparents today. It was your uncle's bday get together. We almost didn't go to my dad's house for the BBQ. I have been protective of you and our family as we continually evaluate decisions and outings during this time. But I realized it hadn't been since November when we last saw family or friends. Clara hadn't had interaction with other kids. and honestly, I just needed to get out of the house. I have already been so isolated during the pregnancy and this postpartum time. Covid19 hasn't helped this vulnerable, tender time of the fourth trimester. It was so good for me, your dad, and your big sis to get out of the house. Months of isolation, and it felt so nice to go to my dad's house and be around family. I was concerned in the back of my mind, but we're all healthy. No one got sick. And no neighbors turned us in. It's really strange times. I remember walking into my dad's house, on this beautiful, sunny day, and feeling like it was almost criminal to be leaving the house. This whole Covid pandemic has everyone on edge, the media is always enforcing the NLP to get us all to stay home, and mayors and governors are encouraging people to call in people that break the lockdown rules. But we all needed this get together so much.
I haven't been great about taking notes lately. I'm just trying to focus on getting sleep and meeting my basic needs with eating, drinking, and healing from surgeries. We're finally getting more sleep. You sleep great. You take naps. I still struggle with getting enough sleep, but in May I started averaging about 5-7 hours of sleep in a day, not all at one time, but it's so much better than the 2-3 hours I was getting for months, even before you were born, because I was so sick.
I'm still struggling with PPD/PPA and PTSD from HG.
You are amazing though, my darling bay. You are in awe of your hands. You have started drooling a lot and we can feel where your first teeth will eventually pop up.
May 9, your big brother turned 16. We said screw the lockdown and invited family over on May 10th for William's bday/your great grandmother's birthday ( May 15)/ and Mother's Day all in one get together. Let's jsut call it calculated risk. Good to know we have decent neighbors that didn't' report us for having our backyard party. Yep, big brother wants us all to tattle on each other if we leave our homes or break lockdown rules. it's the crazy world we're in at the moment. But those are thoughts for another post.
You love when we go for walks outside. You smile and are content for some time. You like looking around.
We were having a lazy day at home while it was overcast and cool outside. I wanted to get some video and photos for the week. We danced, played with puzzles, and watched the newer version of Mary Poppins. Clara loves dancing to the sweepers musical scene. She has since we first watched the movie when it came out back in 2018.
Stella is making more sounds and coos. She smiles a lot. Clara and Stella both adore one another.
Today ( 5-18-20) marks 13.6 wks since Stella was born. We're still in fourth trimester, still considered the postpartum time frame, and it's flying by. She's changing so fast.
The vids and pics are from May 18, but the blog was written today, May 30th:
I couldn't sleep so I got to sorting through some pics early this morning. These are recent shots. I'm all over the place with my photos and vids. I suppose it'll be that way for a while. I don't take a lot of time to sit down and go through everything anymore. But at least I'm feeling like working on something. Having been in a slump with a lot since Stella was born, it feels good when I take time to do something I enjoy like taking photos or putting together a blog for our family site. I feel like some of the PPD fog is lifting a bit at times. I'm enjoying Stella even more. I'm finding myself wanting to attempt to get back into the swing of things, but I have to take things in small steps, because I'm still not feeling fully immersed in everything.. I mean, I guess just still working on getting back to feeling like me.
I hope the kids will enjoy this website someday when they're older and can look back.
.Today is HG Awareness Day
Hyperemesis Gravidarum: a potentially life-threatening pregnancy disease that causes malnutrition, dehydration, and debility due to severe nausea and vomiting, and may cause long-term health issues for mom and baby.
I have had it in 2 of my 3 pregnancies. It was far worse during my 3rd pregnancy. I was severely ill from 4 weeks of pregnancy up until the day after recovery from my c-section. I threw up 40+ times a day. I threw up not just food and liquids, but also acid, bile, and blood. I was a on picc line, and ended up going in for 3 picc line placements. I was on home health care. I was in the hospital every week for months to go in for fluids when I didn't have a picc line.
I rarely left home. I was isolated a lot. I had to take an emesis bag whenever I left anywhere. One time my husband tried to get me out of the house, because i was crying and feeling so trapped, he hooked me up to my IV in the car and took me for a drive, but all I could do is throw up. I often couldn't handle being in the car. Many times when I drove myself to dr appointments I would throw up while driving. I would need change of clothes because this also meant that many times I lost control of my bladder, too.
I had side effects from medications.
HG takes it toll financially, physically, emotionally, mentally, it's a dark night of the soul for 9 months. It took its toll on my other kids, my husband. My teenager often expressed his fear that I would die when he saw me at my worst. My 3 year old was always there to try and take care of me and sometimes was mad at me for not playing with her and being the mom I was before HG. HG hurts not only the mom, but her family, too.
I had an OB that didn't take my HG as seriously as she should have and I ended up having to make a switch to a different OB that had a greater understanding and compassion for moms with HG. It made a lot of difference in my care. The stress I had before switching was overwhelming and it broke my heart, but that's a story in itself. Point is a doctor or midwife that understands it is crucial in helping HG moms get through it.
I have complications from the aftermath of HG. I continued to have nausea and vomiting for a month after my baby was born, and I had to have emergency gallbladder removal surgery a month after my csection...during a pandemic, alone. I have major dental problems that I'm getting ongoing treatment for. I have PTSD, PPD/PPA. I am 3 months postpartum and still struggle with food, what I eat, and fear of eating.
HG doesn't discriminate. It affects pregnant women of any age, race, and it doesn't matter if you're having a boy or a girl.
18% of women meet full criteria for PTSD and more will struggle with symptoms for years, even decades.
1 in 3 babies does not make it to term.
80% of families suffer negative psychosocial impact.
Babies face a 4-fold increase in neurodevelopmental diagnosis
This is the condensed version of my story and facts about HG.
During my pregnancy I made multiple videos and blogs about my life with HG. Some of it is going to be used for an upcoming international documentary about HG being produced by the HER Foundation. They sent me these shirts as a thank you for my contribution to the doc. I'm thankful to be a part of it and be a voice for women with HG.
Learn more about HG at hyperemesis.org
Here's the link to all of my HG blogs and videos I made.
I haven't covered my postpartum journey and aftermath, because it's overwhelming to me emotionally, but today I really wanted to share my voice., my story.
I am a survivor. My two daughters are survivors. We are TougHGirls.
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When William was about 4 years old I got him a butterfly kit from INsect Lore. We had so much fun with it, and we took the butterflies up to one of our favorite spots in the mountains. It's a sweet memory that William stills recalls.
I decided it'd be fun to do a month long butterfly study unit with Clara this spring. We were successful in raising 19 of 20 caterpillars into butterflies. Now she wants to grow ladybugs, praying mantis, and more butterflies.
This is likely to become a fun tradition in the spring and summers as the girls grow up.
The Covid19 quarantine as us cooped up, but thank goodness for our first really nice day of Spring. Hanging out in the backyard on a lazy late afternoon.
We had the radio playing as we blew up the bounce house and it kinda had an eerie, ironic feel to it. Being trapped in a lockdown, the quietness of the Spring afternoon, a new baby, it kinda took on a new feel listening to this old 80s song by Tears for Fears:
Welcome to your life
There's no turning back
Even while we sleep
We will find You acting on your best behavior
Turn your back on mother nature
Everybody wants to rule the world
It's my own design
It's my own remorse
Help me to decide
Help me make the most Of freedom and of pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever
Everybody wants to rule the world
There's a room where the light won't find you
Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down
When they do, I'll be right behind you
So glad we've almost made it
So sad they had to fade it
Everybody wants to rule the world
I can't stand this indecision
Married with a lack of vision
Everybody wants to rule the world
Say that you'll never, never, never, need it
One headline, why believe it?
Everybody wants to rule the world
All for freedom and for pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever
Everybody wants to rule the world
Everything Allison Attitude 2020