I've waited yet another month to go skating. My broken toe isn't healing. It's bumming me out. I've been off my skates truly since August, but even before that I struggled from the hip injury. Then having Covid, mom dying, broken toe, sick over and over since having Covid, it's been a nightmare for me not being able to skate.
I know, it sounds like I'm complaining and I am a little. It's been so damn rough. Skating is such a huge relief for me. It's meditative and therapeutic. The whole last year has been a bust, and more so since last August.
Anyways, insurance won't cover the ultrasound frequency device I need to help my bone heal. My toe is rotating and aches a lot, the fracture is really wonky and not healing. When insurance stated they won't cover it, and I've spent months trying to let it heal and stay off of it, I decided this month to just say, "screw it."
I'm going to get back to skating. Even if it hurts. Even though I'm not very stable on my skates because of my toe. I can't put a lot of weight on it and it's changing my foot placement when I skate.
It's messed up. Okay, venting done.
What's more important is that I got back on wheels and it felt so good mentally! So yeah, screw it. I'm just going to deal with the pain and push through, because I freaking love skating.
Love over pain. Passion over low quality woe emotions. I got this, and something's gotta give at some point, so until then I skate as best as I can, when I can, and eventually I'll be full swing again.
In this video below I'm dressed like my mom. Check out the photos I recreated here.
Skating with William.
Written with the intention to preserve my own thoughts and memories, and to pass down to my children.